he put me through hell and i called it love
I didn’t know there was a way for me to fall more deeply in love with you, until today. You were the first person I saw when I arrived, and inarticulately I was entranced by how you looked so good in grey, or everything, for some reason. I can’t handle your mesmerizing gaze, but the thought of you glancing in my direction made my heart race.
Did you, perhaps, find me pretty, in any way?
Or was it really in your nature to make people feel so dumbstruck, and wonder if there was something about them which made you smile?
I hope I’m the only one who felt this way around you.
You have given me a happy day, and went out of your way to take a half-decent photo with me. In return I give you my love, and the gift that I’ve been saving up for, to show you how much I appreciate every good thing that you’ve done in my life.
Because for me, you have given your sweetest smile.
You sat by the window, and I looked at you from outside. If you hadn’t given me the same cold stare I see in your eyes whenever we meet, I would’ve smiled at you.
and I knew I was right when you averted your gaze and closed the curtain.
But I’m used to it by now. There are times when you seemed happy to be with me, and times when I sense annoyance in your face.
And I knew that it would take some time to figure you out. I would never know the real meaning behind your smile, or if it’s really okay for you to take a picture with me after turning me down the first time. I don’t understand how you can smile like that when you stand so near the person who seemed desperate to talk to you everyday, but doesn’t have the guts to walk up to you today.
Sometimes I wished you’d be a little meaner to me, then maybe I could get over you easily. But most of the time I just think of how you’re really worth it, and how nothing could ever compare to the warm feeling I get every time I sense the coldness in your eyes.
P.S. shit getting so repetitive tho I'm inspired today because we finally have a decent picture together 🙂
Minna~(⌒▽⌒) This is my first ever official blog thread and I decided that it’ll be about my Top Yaoi Mangas🙈🔥 Look foward to it hehehe💜
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